My Current Rules

Part of the reason I've chosen to blog about my submissive life is to maintain accountability.  Ultimately, he is in charge and will handle any digressions, but from day to day I want to chronicle all the little details so that I can correct my own failings and see where I can make improvements.  As I mentioned in my first post, sexual submission is something we have repeatedly attempted to incorporate into our lives, and yet we can only maintain it for so long.  Certainly, when we have sex, we return to our roles, but we have both expressed a desire to keep it up on a daily basis.  Somehow it always dies out.

I don't know if we're too eager and take on too much too fast, or if what we envision for ourselves just isn't possible.  Because we have children and jobs and various responsibilities, we can't do something like this 24/7.  I know I am guilty of slacking off...but then as the Dominant, shouldn't he be ultimately to blame for not holding me to it?  On the other hand, perhaps as his wife, I have not properly communicated my needs and desires.  These are the things I want to ponder here but not right this very second!

None of these are difficult to complete and I yet I have only done them a handful of times.  I have even stopped thanking him via email each day.  

I want to start off by laying out the rules as they stand.  In January, I was given a number of rules to follow.  I followed them explicitly and with earnest, only needing one strong punishment along the way to correct some failed behavior.  He was quite pleased with my obedience and decided on February 3 to up the ante with some new guidelines as follows:

1. I will, without fail, ensure that His cock is sucked to the point of orgasm each day, for the remainder of the month. I do this without expectation of reciprocation, but because I am a cock-serving whore and He deserves daily usage of my mouth-hole.

2. My ass will be plugged by 10pm each night, without fail. As an owned slut, I am required to be available to Him in any way that He wishes. I will do more to ensure that my ass accommodates His cock.

3. In the past I have been told to not fall asleep without assuring that His cock has been properly cared for and His needs fulfilled.  While this may be embarressing to say aloud, I should have no shame in being His whore. From this point forward, I will say this phrase each night, "Sir, I am getting tired. Are you done using your holes?" before I fall asleep. Infractions to this will result in being awoken in a manner of His choosing.

4. When the children go up to bed, I will sit on the floor at His feet until given permission to join Him on the couch. To sit beside Him is a privilege and if I am given permission to do so, I will show my gratitude.

5.  I will write to him each day via email, text, or handwritten note to thank Him for the privilege of being his slut.

When I am done typing this post, I am going to write to him and apologize for not taking my responsibilities seriously.  I will ask that he review these rules with me and perhaps give me a punishment to refocus my attentions where they need to be - on his cock.  I am certain he will agree and hopefully tomorrow I will have more to share with you all.

Until then, 

~n~